Life as a Pharmer...

Woo... I m bac!!!

noreply@blogger.com (L2G) — Thu, 03 Sep 2009 14:27:00 +0000

It had been more than one year since i last blog. A lot had happened, most significantly is that i started work already n now i almost finish my houseman... WOo!

As for y i stopped that typical reason is that i m too busy, swamp by work... bla.. bla... bla... But mainly is because i lose my mojo, i lose what inspire me to write, what push me to sign in n type...

Until now i still not 100% recovered yet, so my writing may still sucks... Hahaha...

Learned a lot since start working, both work related and non work related. Mostly non work related. My thinking had been expose to new environment, people, and things. SHOCK! at first but numb-ing as it progress.

Now currently waiting for my next posting place!!! I Wan go BAC!!!

Pls dear mighty god let me go bac!!! PLSSSSS.....

Narnia

noreply@blogger.com (L2G) — Wed, 28 May 2008 15:17:00 +0000

Yes, i m bac to blogging world after so long, many things had happened, namely: interview and convocation. Yea, i finally graduated as a pharmacist!

O, bac to narnia, i went to watch narnia: prince caspian today at times square with wk and zy. Those that hope that i will talk about what the movie is about will be disappointed as i m not going to do that. U can check the storyline in other blogs or newspaper/magazine. What i want to talk about is my experience while watching narnia.

What happen was during the movie, they are 3 malays sitting beside wk. They look like same age as us around 20-22. N throughout the movie, they look very excited n very into the movie, they scream when something surprise happened, they cheer for the kings n queens of narnia (pls go see the movie to see who they are) and they even clap hands when Aslan come to the rescue and peter save the day. What my point is: I ENVY them! As much as i try to keep myself young(believe me, i did try, even with all those grey hairs), i m mentally old. I do not believe in santa claus, i know aslan is computerise effect, i know narnia doesn't exist, maybe i also dun believe that good will thrump evil anymore. Fairy tales and their value behind them will always be stories only.

But for them, yes, they may have the same thinking as me but i know there is a small part in them that fairy tales exist. That's why they are so into the movie. I feel older after the movie.

Current mood: feeling bad over someone

Is it really finished? Pinched me pls...

noreply@blogger.com (L2G) — Thu, 10 Apr 2008 01:48:00 +0000

I finish my last exam as a undergraduate yesterday (hopefully is the last one, I will say a big NO-NO to resit, o mighty god let me pass...). It's a OSCE and is like there will be simulated patient there with different request for us to tackle, or in an easier way is an oral or practical exam.

As i suck in communication, that is my biggest nightmare since i know that will be one of the component in the exam. I screwed up big time for the last two trial. For somehow when i step into the room i will freeze n my brain will blank: deleting every bits and pieces of information inside it. Yesterday is no exception. I knew i did badly, hopefully i can just squeeze through the passing mark (The big 50 gate) for me to graduate.

Anyway, at the end of this mile stone, i somehow think bac whether i hav changed during these 4 years. I have to admit, these four years have been four long, hard years for me, the studying is jus horrific, it still sent shiver right from head to toe when thinking bac. Those study break have been terrible. During sem 4 when v have 8 module, that was the period i spend less time sleeping. Then sem 6 i suffer from insomnia. During that period i felt intermittant and countless times of uncertainty, no confident and sometime even feel like breaking down n give up. I m amaze that i still in one piece n hold out until now.

As development as a person, i think i didn't change much during this period. Just as time go on i learned more and knew more n made minor adjustment to my thinking althought most of my IMU friend think my thinking is weird and should not be encourage and practiced. One major setback did happened on sem7. Althought that was my toughest part through my uni life but what can't kill u make u stronger (Thanx god i didn't kill myself, though depressed), i now can considered half cure but the memory will haunt me for years to come.

But aside from sad incidents, i did hav happy memory in IMU. I met some nice friends who teach me, share n go through everything with me during my uni life. Our outing will never lack laughter. Even though sometime argument did happens but v always manage to solve it and stick together. Will write a post about IMU friends on a separate post. I met a lot of interesting people in IMU n somehow have a lot of sons and daughters dunno pop out from where.

In summary, i did suffer in IMU but also did enjoy my uni life. I will definitely miss all these when i m working...

So, PLS let ALL OF US PASS so that v can work and can miss uni life, PLS, i m begging... PLS GOD... ...

Devil's deal...

noreply@blogger.com (L2G) — Tue, 11 Mar 2008 09:20:00 +0000

How far will u go to achieve something? R u willing to sell your soul to the devil if can be exchange with anything that u desire?

I do concede that i m not perfect. I sometime do things that i m not proud of to achieve my aim. But i will only go as far as my conscious allow me to go. Nowadays i saw people stepping closer and closer to the devil path just to achieve something and their reason is:

"What's wrong with it, i wan to achieve what i set, if i dun do it; he, he, she or he will also do the same thing, then i wil be lagging already. What's wrong with the devil path, it's only a perspective of how u see things only. I m seeing it as angle's path, U R THE DEVIL!!!"

How far should i go? Confused...

Still alive...

noreply@blogger.com (L2G) — Wed, 05 Mar 2008 07:59:00 +0000

This was suppose to be a post on last Wednesday. Last 2 week has been hell. Below are the list of work that have to be done on the past two weeks:

Industry attachment with full report

10 short care plan

1 long case

study and sit for exam for evaluating pharmacology

Integrated seminar

Writing exercise for evaluating pharmacy

All those work have to be finish in a 9 days window. It all ends today with integrated seminar presentation on asthma. I have literately abandon my life for all those works. And it's not like in exchange of no life i get good work rate. All i can say is work did in desperate time won't be as good as work done in long, relax period like some other lucky ones have the privilege of. U may ask: "Who u wan to blame for then? Since u are so not satisfy." I only can blame my luck. What i have learn in this attachment period is to be perseverance, in whatever that were thrown at u(me). YES, at times i feel bleak, i feel is like the end of the world, i feel that i m hopeless. But i know if i hang in there long enough eventually i will go through it. N luckily at last i did even is in a not the perfect way that i wan. Hopefully all will go well in the final few weeks of my uni life and i can graduate soon. I believe that i can. YES, I CAN.

White lies...

noreply@blogger.com (L2G) — Thu, 14 Feb 2008 05:57:00 +0000

Do u all believe in white lie? Or u all are like me-- a white lie will still be a lie, no matter how beautiful it is.

Today someone lie about something to me. I feel that i m so stupid as the lier thought he/she can lie sucessfully even without covering properly. As if i m so naive and easy to lie to. It's either:

a) He/ she is a bad lier

or

b) Aiya, Lg only ma, no need waste effort to make the lie look good. Waste time!

Ouch, that damn hurting.

To the no good lier, try harder next time, K?

Happy Valentine Everyone!

Clock ticking...

noreply@blogger.com (L2G) — Tue, 29 Jan 2008 08:39:00 +0000

My fren once said: "Do u know that the time will still move evn if u do nothing?"

After some serious thinking, i come to a conclusion that: yea, time still move even if v do nothing. From that i somehow realise that everything will past, by one way or another. Sometime i feel that i would just really do nothing and let time flew past me but that is not an option now. I feel so tired and pressured everyday that i might for once "exploded".

But i will still try to hang in there, even if only a thread of line is holding me from become insane. Jus hope that time past faster and i will be still there...

Seremban

noreply@blogger.com (L2G) — Wed, 09 Jan 2008 09:03:00 +0000

I m currently at seremban doing my rotation...

Really no life now! Have to clerk case then do care plan then study then clerk case then do care plan then study then clerk case then do care plan then study then clerk case then do care plan then study then clerk case then do care plan then study then clerk case then do care plan then study then clerk case then do care plan then study then clerk case then do care plan then study then clerk case then do care plan then study then clerk case then do care plan then study then clerk case then do care plan then study then clerk case then do care plan then study then clerk case then do care plan then study then clerk case then do care plan then study then clerk case then do care plan then study then clerk case then do care plan then study then clerk case then do care plan then study then clerk case then do care plan then study then clerk case then do care plan then study then clerk case then do care plan then study then clerk case then do care plan then study then clerk case then do care plan then study then clerk case then do care plan then study then clerk case then do care plan then study then clerk case then do care plan then study then clerk case then do care plan then study then clerk case then do care plan then study then clerk case then do care plan then study then clerk case then do care plan then study then clerk case then do care plan then study then clerk case then do care plan then study then clerk case then do care plan then study then clerk case then do care plan then study then clerk case then do care plan then study then clerk case then do care plan then study then clerk case then do care plan then study then clerk case then do care plan then study then clerk case then do care plan then study then clerk case then do care plan then study then clerk case then do care plan then study then clerk case then do care plan then study then clerk case then do care plan then study then clerk case then do care plan then study then clerk case then do care plan then study then clerk case then do care plan then study then clerk case then do care plan then study then clerk case then do care plan then study then clerk case then do care plan then study then clerk case then do care plan then study

My head is full of drug name that i will be forgeting fast and then have to clamp bac in after i forget...

Really torturing!!!

Hard luck...

noreply@blogger.com (L2G) — Tue, 04 Dec 2007 10:40:00 +0000

A long time i didn't scrap here already... Had been very busy with thesis writing and now since sem 8 had started life will be busier than ever.

This sem i will have a 9 week attachment in a hospital. Firstly i m being posted to Selayang hospital, then they move me to putrajaya hospital. Now they are THROWING me to Seremban hospital. No offense to Seremban hospital, i know Seremban hospital is a good hospital but it is just too far from where i m staying. Imagine that travelling... after a long day at hospital some more.

If i choose to stay there, there willl be a huge chunk of money gone. So is IMU going to compensate me with any money? NO, they won't. They just assign and how i will be there is MY PROBLEM!

Is it just pure bad luck i had been assign there? I had never(but once) being assign to a near by hospital. It is always Klang, then now Seremban. Further and further. I now i will have no choice when i m working. I will be post to any hospital goverment want to throw me to but at least they are paying me. Not like now i have to PAY for getting up Super early then go attach until SUPER late!

I know it's part of the training but it is so, SO suffering. Let's hope i will make most of it out of my SUFFERING this sem. I want to graduate next May.

May what that does not kill me make me stronger, I will survive!

Adrenaline

noreply@blogger.com (L2G) — Wed, 26 Sep 2007 10:45:00 +0000

Yesterday i was at IMU to see the cheerleading competition. Overally the competition is very nice and it is not hard to see that they really take a big effort to train so that v can see what v saw yesterday. When i watch the competition, what i was thinking was: "Wow, what they r doing sure need a rush of adrenaline to help them to complete their part, don't they?"

Yea, human can complete a lot of things with a rush of adrenaline. What was the difference is that people choose to use it for different usage. Some choose to use it benefactively like in cheer leading, but some choose to use it the other way around--- in crimes... one have to choose wisely enough for its good use...

What? How i use my adrenaline? Sorry, but i m abnormal... I dun have any!

Allergy....

noreply@blogger.com (L2G) — Tue, 18 Sep 2007 09:38:00 +0000

This is my diagnosis of the long term cough that is bugging me for the past months. What the doctor said is i have a sensitive respiratory tract since i was still small(o, he is our family doc, i had been seeing him since i was small) that's y that whenever that i m in close contact with dust and smoke there will be fluid accumulating at my respi tract then lead to the irritation of the respi tract which will lead to cough n when i said cough i mean excessive cough that u can't even imagine.

In short notes, allergy is due to histamine which is secrete from our body due to the stimulation of certain stimulant and in my case is dust and smoke. I m very prone to allergy not onli physically but also psychologically. This is because that after certain "mental trauma" that i experience the trauma will remain in my brain for a long, LONG time. Anything that can be related to those trauma surfaced and can act as stimulant that will lead to my release of "mental histamine" and lead to my unhealthy psychological state.

So, u may ask, "Then how to treat allergy? Both physically and psychologically?" My answer will be--- is the same method: the exclusion method. For example, if u are allergic toward apple, DON'T EAT APPLE altogether, if u are allergy toward lobster, DON'T EAT LOBSTER altogether. The same concept apply toward psychology allergy, if midvalley stimulate ur mental histamine, ban midvalley. If IMU make u sick--- QUIT IMU. But sadly life is not that simple, I can't exclude everything that i dislike... that's mean that i have to get hold myself of those trauma until there is a drug to cure mental allergy...

Down with flu...

noreply@blogger.com (L2G) — Fri, 14 Sep 2007 10:43:00 +0000

The cough had been bugging me for quite sometime already. Last time around i dun care as its a tradition that i have marathon cough. I have a record to be coughing for even half a year. But this around i got yellow sputum which means got infection somewhere in my body. That mean that i need antibiotic... Somehow even that i will be practising health care i m not that fond of western medication but i think i need to have some this time around... The cough n the constant running nose is very irritating and annoying... I think i over spend on tissue already. Darn it...

Wish me recover faster... =p

Yea rite...

noreply@blogger.com (L2G) — Tue, 11 Sep 2007 08:54:00 +0000

last few days i have been questioned bout the fault language use in my blog.

N frankly i dun care less...

This is my blog, n if i can't express what i feel at that time then what's the point that i blog...

So...

Yea RITE... I DUN CARE!!!

Nationcom

noreply@blogger.com (L2G) — Wed, 05 Sep 2007 10:15:00 +0000

This nationcom supplier is the one who is SUPPOSE to supplier internet coverage to our apartment n out of the blue it jus stop supplying the service which make me have a boring few weeks without any internet. i can't chat, can't search for information, can't blog hopping and most importantly is that i can't blog... I m currently typing this all out in the e lab in my uni. So, sadly announce: no pic... Speaking of uni connection, theirs also have their own shares of problems and are not pleasant to deal with. N just for the record i m studying at IMU which provide the well below average of internet service...

Ok, enough of sucky internet provider service story. Let's have some update of my life. For once i m not planning to use any metaphore to convey my life nowadays. Yes, my life nowadays are quite bored and dull. I m almost done on my lab stuff where i still need to do 4 more samples to complete my data collection. I have think of starting my disertation but seriously i found no inspiration or mood to start the writings. The information on noni fruits are quite hard to be found in internet, even if is can found the article will be not on the anticoagulation effects of the noni fruits itself... I know i will have a rough time finding some useful ones.

N life in vista also very boring... I have nothing to do when all my hardworking housemate either doing their labs or attending lectures... Boring kills... i have to content myself toward reading and watching old series... N, i really do tend to do my writing but... ai... long story...

Speaking of series, yesterday i was wacthing grey's anatomy season two n i found something inside very interesting: a "dead" person awaiting to be certified is being wheel in the OR room, the attending doctor ask the resident to do all the necessary steps to save the patient when apparently that the patient has no hope of surviving. The resident ask the attending: "Y are v doing this? izzit for experiences?" The attending doctor ask the resident to think himself. At the end of the episode the resident finally know the answer: they did so so that at the end of their day they can tell the dead person's family that "they have try their best".

Yes, what important in everyday life is to try our best in everything. I m still learning to do so. Quite often i think i didn't give my best shoot on everything because i m lack of confident. I need to build up my confident so that i wil have no regrets at the end. I swear i wil learn.

As for my social life, it can be said as interesting and also can be said as boring. This is because that yea, i have a lot of activities to attend to and lots of stuff to do but nowadays i feel fatigue n emotional while i do stuff. That sense of emptiness and loneliness is creeping up my sleeve and making me depress. My close frens will know y. But pls bear with me if one day u saw me walking like a zombie or have unpleasant face, just ignore it or say that: "O, li guo is PMSing..." i dun mind. Pls dun run away from me forever as i believe with time i will n can recover. N i m self declaring that i m OK, NO WORRIES(not that anyone cares, jus FYI onli).

O, n i did catch a hell lots of movie this few weeks, i watch: secret, ratatouille, rogue assassins, and perfect stranger. Among those, secret is the best. The storyline and the characters really attacts me a lot. Ratatouille is damn funny, i enjoy the movie a lot. Rogue assassins is a par movie for me as there is too much violent and bloody... As for perfect stranger... i will rate above average, although the plot is really interesting and the storyline have a twist at the ending part the movie itself fail to captivates me...

I think that's all for now gua... I think no people can finish this wordy post lo, just to test who really read all, pls type :"i finish all" at the chatter box beside... Hehehe...

Yes, i mind... I do mind...

noreply@blogger.com (L2G) — Fri, 24 Aug 2007 20:19:00 +0000

金莎我介意:

"其实我的安静有迹可寻只是你不太留心而已"

"渐渐你成为我部落格里被别人阅览着的心情"

"我还是介意你的话总在无意间变化"

"该迁就还是一笑而罢"

I mind! I really damn f***ing MIND!!!

The thin line...

noreply@blogger.com (L2G) — Wed, 15 Aug 2007 12:12:00 +0000

The line separating these things are so thin...

Good vs Bad

Bad vs Evil

Thrifty vs kiam siap

Love vs Hate

Being down to earth vs Being fake

Competative vs Kiasu

Dedicated vs KIASU again

Dun care vs Give up

Care vs Controlling

Where is the line? Who draws the line? how thick/ thin is the line? n who's holding the ruler?

Should i cross the line?

Choices

noreply@blogger.com (L2G) — Sun, 12 Aug 2007 13:23:00 +0000

How to choose: between impossible and improbable...

U teach me la!!!

So sad...

Random post

noreply@blogger.com (L2G) — Thu, 02 Aug 2007 14:18:00 +0000

On certain sometime, I was here:

At there, i had a lot of things happen. Good or bad. I, for ther first time didn't sleep in 24 hours. But it was worth it as things are somewhat clearer after the trip even the mist there is thick as ever. (Just to make me remember in the future, some random words: walk, look, coin, side, never) O, v nearly "terbabas" at 2 occasion... Freaking scare...

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On another certain someday, WK treat us this:

at:

In my whole damn life i onli ate this brand twice. Yes, i mean i eat the brand. I confess the ice cream is damn nice but i still think the price is over price due to its brand. Partly i m eating the brand with the ice cream. (I still like the lemon plain water there big time)

That day i eat melon flavor one... N its really, REALLY good. The ice cream there is the best that i had encounter before... So, THANK again WK for treating all of us!

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N... at another random day, v are at Murni at SS2, according to HP Murni is another version of William, so v when to try out n i do feel very satisfy with the food at drink there...

The drinks v ordered: Ribena blend and Peach blend... The size that v order are Super big!

As u can see from the picture, the glass is size is almost the same as noob's hand... it is so hard to make the glass to become this: Especially after finishing this:

This is call Nasi Goreng Chicken Chop... I have to finish it in 10 minutes + cause it was going to rain by then... I was like... eat, eat and eat somemore... But it taste very, very good...

Random shot:

Someone struggling to finish his spaghetti: :p

Hang in there? or jus throw in the towel?

noreply@blogger.com (L2G) — Thu, 02 Aug 2007 14:07:00 +0000

Life have been hard these time around, with tons of free time that means that there will be tons of time for reflection and thinking of things that are put away during busy time...

Decision should be make n things to be settle... The answer should be a cystal clear n i should be firm on it, N this make it difficult... i always think: "What if this is not right? What this is just not meant to be? What if i become a burden?"

Hang in there? or jus throw in the towel?

Confuse...

What if...

noreply@blogger.com (L2G) — Thu, 26 Jul 2007 14:47:00 +0000

What if u are the single piece of jigsaw that doesn't fits in the whole puzzle? Will u cut urself jus to fit in even if the big picture althought it will be odd and not look nice at all? Or u will jus give up and find ur own right puzzle to complete?

I m puzzled...

Satey Kajang...

noreply@blogger.com (L2G) — Tue, 24 Jul 2007 14:23:00 +0000

Last sunday, me, noob and hp went to eat satey kajang after some business at kajang... v went there at about 12pm and it was raining sparingly...

The restaurant is situated right beside stadium Kajang. According to HP, there are a lot of restaurants that call themselves satey kajang there but onli that particular restaurant is recognise by the local as the "real" satey kajang.

These are the ketupats and cucumber slices with the satey kuah. I like the satey kuah a lot i can even jus consume the kuah alone...

And the main event:

SATEY!!! The satey is BIG in size and is appropriate in price--- only RM 0.60 per stick...

So what are u waiting for? Go for satey kajang NOW!!!

The reason of absence...

noreply@blogger.com (L2G) — Thu, 19 Jul 2007 13:26:00 +0000

Is this... The research project... I m now doing a research project on the noni fruit...

O, u probably haven't heard of noni before, noni is the hawaii name for morinda citrifolia. It is also known as mengkudu in malaysia, cheese fruit in Australia, and indian mulberry in india. It looks like this:

This green things have been my center of life for the past month... It is torturing. But luckily i finish my presentation today therefore i only need to brush up my proposal then can pass up already. Then there is subsequent "Quality" time with the noni fruits again...

Here are some pictures of the story of me and noni:

WK n me "stealing" noni from people house....

The fruits that we "stole":

The equipment we use to extract(take the component out of the fruit) the fruits:

The thing that use to evaporate the excess solvent... The rotaevaporator, from the name u know how it will function... it rotate and evaporates...

This thing is being use to preserve the extract that we make. It is call a freeze drier... The function can also be seen from the name: it freeze and will dry the component to be preserve.

This is the picture that i m washing sea weeds.

My part time job...

Ok la, will update more when have time...

No good deed go unpunish...

noreply@blogger.com (L2G) — Tue, 10 Jul 2007 14:47:00 +0000

Lately have been doing something right but it turn out to be wrong. Maybe it's not that bad to be a villian once in a while... Currently sulking and dun know when will it end...

Fatigue...

noreply@blogger.com (L2G) — Tue, 26 Jun 2007 00:42:00 +0000

Holiday but i m still fatigue??? I should be well rest and well prepared for the start of sem 7 rite? But dunno y i just not feel like it. The feeling is like something is bugging me and zapping every little bit of energy inside me... Maybe i have been being in static for too long until i forget what is movement therefore i will feel fatigue everytime i physically move... But luckily i dun have mental fatigue... i think about quite a lot during this break n hopefully my thought can be turn into action once i have "remember" again how to move n move my lazy a** once more...

Bowl...

noreply@blogger.com (L2G) — Sun, 10 Jun 2007 08:53:00 +0000

Last, last, last, last, last, last... few weeks before this i went bowling with Alan n HP. We go there cause v are too damn bored staying at vista... This is roughly how HP BOWL.

Me n My ball... Me n Alan call it lucky ball cause v will tend to get more pins to get down by using this ball somehow... No research done on that.

This is how the first game goes: I got a strike... YEAH!!!

For the second game i get the lowest score of 55. Somehow i only can hit the pin on either of the try on each try. Dunno y... Weird...

After the bowling game v feel that v still need more "ball" stuff so v go for the smaller kind of balls-- pool. This is how HP look trying to "pose" hitting the ball...

They say i hit the ball too fast until not able to take pic so this pic i purposely FREEZE for camera.

O, yea, i m still blogging from my fren's house. =p