Focus

The theme of these few weeks is to stay focus. Things starts to get busy and i have to stay focus to manage the things that come in one by one or multiple by multiple. But focus isn't one of the things that i m good at therefore i m suffering now...

Weird feeling...

Feel tired and exhausted althought didn't do much physically demanding today... Feel weird... What i have done today:

• Drive to find the way to the---no one want to go tengku ampuan rahimah hospital
• Go home, eat, watch crap tv
• Then go 1U watch Ghost Raider(sleep at the early part of the show)
• Then eat at Pizza Hut

See nothing physical demanding rite? Then y m i so TIRED?

Maybe is mentally fatigue gua... I need rest... MENTALLY before heading back to IMU!!!

My mystery...

My mystery is: why am i so freaking like to eat...

To everyone out there who wan to know why i SO like to eat, even if:

• I m freaking fat
• I m hypertensive
• I know i can't eat too much for my health well being
• I know my BMI > 30
• All people i know ask me to stop eating

The answer is eating help me pass my "low time" in my life. Eating is not to fill up my stomach but to fill up my mind with something and inject those "endorphin" that i need during my sad time to pull me through the sorrow... I still can recall that once i m so quarreling with someone at sunway pyramid then what make me calm is a cup of Mc D shake.

I so need my food(dessert) because my life is so saddening...

For now, food is STILL and will be my antidote... Unless something/someone else pop up in my life and save me...

If...

Will i still be "i" if things are not quite the same?

What if i m not that enormously huge?
What if i m not that freaking poor?
What if i m handsome?
What if i m self exploded with confident?
What if i m not that grumpy?
What if i m good in talking?
What if i m half full not half empty?

Someone tell me that i m now what i m because of what i m before... Or literately... I m shaped into what i m now... Some small changes in anything that i have mention before may change the now me...

Hmm... I m force to be me? What m i will be if i have the chance to choose?

Will i still be "me"?

Happy CNY everyone!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Epoxy eye...

Today i went into MPH to rest my legs... YES, to rest my tired leg... after 3 hours of crazy shopping at 1U. I wonder how women did shopping that frequent and enjoy it at the same time...

As i was saying... i was at MPH then cc brought bac two books... One is a book on "how to..." And one of the chapter is on: "How to make gal/boy fall in love with u with ur eye"...

And the solution is: "The epoxy eye"

According to the book, epoxy eye is a type of eye that u shower on the person u so called want to impress... How to do it?

1. When talk in a group of 3 or more peoples, focus only on the person that u wan to impress, whether he/she is talking or not...

2. Focus...

3. Focus...

4. More focus...

5. If u think it is rude to the speaker(which i think so), u can try to focus on the person u wan to impress on every end of every certain point by the speaker...

The catch is written lastly that this epoxy eye thingy onli works on those that dun have strong dislike toward u...

So, people who want to try it out...

BEWARE!!!

I m now...

Doing my laundry on Valentine nite...

Lame rite?

Tyre Curse...

That is my third puncture in 6 months!

I was driving to my fren's house after a game of basketball, n while waiting for my fren, my fren notice that my left back tyre puncture... AGAIN!!! It is unbelievable!!! How can that be...

Luckily(or unluckily) there is a tyre shop just around the place i found my tyre brust... each of the 3 time i found the brust. Maybe this is the evil plot of the tyre shop to brust my tyreby spraying nail nearby their shop... Maybe... NAA... no really as two out of 3 times that i can find even the small nail. So, what's my problem? Is it really the tyre curse? Who know how to break it?(Pls kindly leave the antidote at the chatter box or comment section)...

Lastly, today i heard one of my fren say: "Marriage is not a two people thingy but a two family thingy..." That left me wondering...

Self pity...

Today i glance over one page of the star R.A.G.E. section, it is about the the A-Z on overcoming stress... i quicky peek out that there is one line that write: "Pick urself up from self pity..."

Self pity... that something that i do... ALWAYS... I like to put myself in all those thought that i m not worth this n that n then pity myself on missing on every single little stuff in life. That's an act of weakness. I keep repeating these type of s**t stuff n pity my self every now n then.

I really dun have any solution on how to picking myself up from self pity or even dun know how to stop myself from self pity-ing myself subconsciously...

Let just hope i can stop doing that... FAST...

Do u know?

Whether Aunty Mary had died...

Whether is jam, butter or half butter half jam...

N what time it is now...

OMG, I did it again...

Once again my reflex deceive me from doing the normal thing. When i will learn to use my brain...Darn it!

I m "rubber", what are u?

Today someone tell me: "I m like a tame kitten, but don't u ever step on my tail, or else u see how u will become..." He say that if he is ever harm then all white n black side will on my trail to hunt me down.

Him???

Hmm... that's scary... I wonder what will i be then...

Then i think: "He is tame kitten then what i m...?"

I think...

n think...

N THINK!!!

Then i come to the conclusion that i m rubber, not the durex type of rubber but rubber band type of rubber. It is elastic... but till a threshold only. U can pull me If the threshold is reach, then the consequence will be:

• The rubber band snap,
  
• The rubber band become another shape which is not elastic at all... N will never be again...

Try me...

How earth moves...

Earth moves around the sun in predictable fashion while my life also move around something 24/7... It has become so predictable that i can't not think: "Gosh, m i doing it again?" Maybe it is time to make some changes to my "routine" and for once live for myself and feel good for myself... I miss that alot...

My eye still red, the eye drop doesn't do its magic stuff yet but i feel better minus the irritation, itchy, tired, blur eye vision that i have. I m thankful that i still see stuff...

O, last night i almost knock on another car bac. I was driving n driving n suddenly the car FAR, i mean FAR, FAR breaks... So i also break lo. What happen is that my break somehow not that good that i nearly knock the other car "tail". That was close... Thank God!

N... i still have mountain of work to be done namely: toxicology report, CTT essay, portfolio, n next week got test somemore...... S**T!

What was i thinking while typing this all...?